This has been a very tiring week.
Busy as all hell--with a dog who wasn't feeling well and so needed to wake me up 10 (yes...truly...10!) times last night--I am fighting to stay awake until at least 8:00. (Anything earlier seems somehow ridiculous.) The back is hurting, and work feels big...so much to think about, keep up with, and plan for in the next five short/long weeks. And so very much change and uncertainty for the near future.
And, yet, weirdly...
I seem to be slowly finding myself closer to myself.
It's happening in little steps.
A bit of acceptance of change here...some ironic humor there...and a little bit of glorious sunshine and a hint of summer thrown in for good measure.
Maybe it's just the exhaustion talking, but I am feeling ever so slightly more settled...more solid and grounded.*
*(At least right now...wait 5 minutes, it could change.)
It feels good, in this moment, to have a feeling of sanity and clarity.
Hopefully, when the more challenging moments come (and come, they will...that's just life), I can remember how this felt, and it will reassure me that I can find my way back to here once again.