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Saturday, March 31, 2012

One of two

Missed blogging yesterday due to a full day of Spanish lessons and Antigua investigation. So here is one of two for the day.

It's odd being still so much of the day. My body and brain are not sure what to do with all the time and calmness. Sadly, they don't necessarily agree with each other. Body says "rest", brain says "wander"...and not always to the best places.

I often wonder: WTF?! Why does my mind want to pull me down a rabbit hole when all is truly well in my world? As I begin to descend (kicking and screaming the whole way) I try to be a open and honest with myself as possible.

Is there something I'm not admitting to myself?

Is there something I'm avoiding?

The answers seem to truly be no, yet there my mind grabs me and runs.

Sigh

It seems Jenny is right...depression IS a lying bastard. Now I just need to learn how to ignore the lies.

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